Jim’s Story….

Complains….
Complains….
Complains…………
That’s what I had been doing for the pass few months. Especially towards the place where I studied. To the mentality in the place, the equipment in the place and everything that you can name it, I think I had already complained about it. So now here’s the problem, is it my problem that I complained too much or is it the place’s condition is too bad until I need to complain about it whenever I had the chance to do so.

My partner had been telling me to look at the bright side. Yes, I did try to look at the bright side, I’m a very optimistic person just to let you know that, yet I just can’t find any good thing to say about it. Except, oh yes except, the friends that I met there. Those friends who money can’t buy them. Only those I really got no complains about.

Come back to the story why I had complained that much. Is it that I had compared with other place that make this place look bad? Or is it just my perception or myself who is not appreciating the opportunity that other Chinese is yearning to get it? Oh yes, a lot of people praise this place like it’s no other place in the world. That it’s the top place in Malaysia, it’s the best, it’s hard to get in ( on this I think if you’re "their" people then it an impossible thing that you couldn’t enter, unless "they’re" that really bad), or just they don’t get much exposure like the others who opt for either private or oversea?

This is what I had recently thought about, can exposure change the way we perceive and think the environment about us? Or just that we’re keeping the complains to ourself thinking that we couldn’t do much about it since it’s not our place anyway. Perhaps that’s the reason why we’re Malaysian are being treated like this, since we’re just keeping the complains and always thought that we can’t anyway make any difference about it, or we just too lazy to give damn about it?

In the end, I think that we deserve better. For the amount of taxes that we paid, (if anyone can think of one thing that wasn’t being taxed please do let me know), we really deserve way better than this. We just didn’t fully utilize the money we’d paid for taxes, but then situations changes when we were being serve in restaurants or retail store, we always want the best services from the restaurant and retail store for the amount we paid for them is not small. When it comes to taxes, the situation is 180 degrees changes. 

Anyway it’s just my ramblings and complain to the system that we’re living in. You may just say that what can I do? Since I’m just another normal fella living under the same system like you and me.What I can tell you is that, the only thing I can do is to expose you more the dark side of the system, for I always believe that awareness can do a lot.

Finally after doing this for nearly half a year then I realized how hard it is…
it’s sort of wearing me out day by day…without me knowing that…
without time for myself to reflect at times….
To be honest, it’s really really hard to put, to commit yourself in so many things in one time, without time for yourself.
Even you asked for those precious time for yourself, you’ll soon find out that it’s impossible to do that, you’ll need to pay a price for it.
Friends are getting further away from you….lost……
Really missed those time spending with my brothers. No worries, no commitment, the feeling of being free…….
No one to help me, and yet the things to do are piling up by the minutes.
Problems and worries piling up by the minutes…
I wonder will this kill me or not, indirectly or directly, I think I’ll know later in my life…
Just hope one day all this problems and worries will fade away…….
Waiting for that day to come…..